tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40392943093704071202012-03-09T11:50:34.921-05:00When the uncertainty of infertility leads to loving life and creating happiness outside of parenthood (while awaiting our adopted baby from Korea)Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.comBlogger2671100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-53737203917865855802012-03-09T08:20:00.004-05:002012-03-09T11:50:34.930-05:00

Sometimes I do in-home assessments through the state for kids in need or kids involved with DYFS (protective services) to determine what, if any, services the state can provide for them. Last week I scheduled an in-home visit with a rather frantic mother who stated she believed her son had a plethora of disorders including ADD, ODD, PDD, and probably a few other "DDs" that got thrown in the mix.

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(copied from the adoption blog) We received an email today that the Korea's Ministry of Health and Welfare has issued a huge batch of EPs!  Yay!  This means a couple of things: 1) Many families that have been waiting a long time to go pick up their babies have been given approval to do so (with our agency, families that have been in line since March 2011 finally get to travel) and 2) EPs

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A lot of times I felt completely alone in my infertility struggle.  In terms of as a couple.  For a while there the evidence was clear that I was doing most of the work by myself, and T only dropped off his little guys at the appointed day and time (admittedly, this is no easy feat, either.  Particularly when they put him in a room without -- eh, hem -- inspiration?).  Hindsight being 20/20, I

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Welcome ICLWers!  You can read about my TTC history here.  Currently, DH and I are waiting for a our referral to adopt from Korea (will happen by June at the latest, we hope).  "Seoul" in the title is a little play on words, since Seoul, Korea is where we will meet our son for the first time.  Yup!  We expect a boy!  Yippee!! So, welcome!  I hope you stick around a while! This is my first ever

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Once in a while I'm still surprised by infertility. I'm not surprised by well-meaning comments or the small jolt of envy at seeing a pregnant belly.  I don't wonder why I feel slightly displaced when looking at baby things for our little one's arrival from Korea.  And I'm not shocked when I feel sad and completely empathic at the reading of a fellow infertile's loss. But once in a while, I'm

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You know the whole saving-for-adoption thing, right?  It means seriously paring down on expenses and finding other ways to have fun experiences for far less money than we would normally spend. The city is right across the river from us.  Tempting, but we have to decline for now. So instead of going out for dinner for Valentine's Day, T and I grabbed a bottle of wine and cooked together for

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After 10+ years together, this is what I woke up to this morning: I'm totally his Valentine. :) It's things like this that kept me going through our horrific infertility experience; and it's what keeps me smiling through the adoption process.  Even if YOU are your Valentine this year....spread the love!  It's what matters.

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(a continuation of this post) Not that I don't have the familiar twinges of sadness whenever I see a pregnant belly and wonder if she had the same journey that so many people I know of in blog-land and IRL have had. Sadly, IF is becoming more and more popular.  Too many people suffer because of it.  Not so sadly, more people are talking about it!  It's still rather taboo, but more people are

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It's weird. This whole I'm-infertile-but-not-feeling-sad skin. Sometimes I don't quite know what to do with it. I started reading some infertility-related books, because I'm beginning a psychotherapy practice dedicated to infertility, and I want to be able to recommend some books that I've read myself. Some of the topics have triggered me; brought me back to those early days of infertility

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Remember THIS? Oh boy was that ever weird....I've had hives before, but never on my face like this.  Yuck. So I've been through a series of tests to determine what I'm allergic to, and it turns out it's trees (hiking in the forest is my most favorite outdoor activity...great), dust mites, wheat (knew that one), oysters (never eat 'em), and tropical fruits. OMG!  Tropical fruits???!!!  Avocado

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-90790851890977546942012-01-23T15:27:00.002-05:002012-01-23T15:32:10.290-05:00

First, welcome ICLWers!  It's been several months since I've participated, and it feels good to be back in the groove.  I'm so looking forward to finding new, spectacular blogs to follow.  Thanks so much for visiting! The short of my story goes like this:  TTC #1 for six years, endometriosis, 2 fresh IVFs, 1 FET, no baby.  Now on to adoption from Korea (hence the blog name change from "Soul" to

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-47181298084650816772012-01-19T09:12:00.001-05:002012-01-19T09:14:04.920-05:00

I came across a fellow adopter's blog a few weeks ago and saw that they announced their intent to adopt with a lovely video.  And I knew that I wanted to do the same thing. So, I did! I've actually cried a few times watching it...I'm sure fellow IFers could totally relate. The video is finished, but I'm hesitating sending it out. Why? Because the IF monster is hanging on my shoulder saying,

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I think it's safe to say that this detox is over for me. I've been "good" since my cheat day, I've stopped eating sesame seeds, and yet the rash is worse. WAY worse. I mean....does THIS look normal to you??? Sorry if my mug scared you.  Shoot...it scares ME! Thankfully I found an allergist who had an available appointment today at noon.  So I'm headed in. In the meantime, I'm kind of

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I caved. In a big way. And my body did NOT like me for it! T was like the little devil on my shoulder and convinced me a glass of wine, bread and butter, and PIZZA weren't all that bad of a cheat.  What the...?? The blame doesn't all go to him, of course.  It's 99% me!  When I do well, I tend to reward myself with food.  I must stop doing that! After this lovely little cheat, I ended up in

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Pounds lost! I'm finishing up day 6 of this detox plan, and I'm feeling much better than I did on day 2 when my head wouldn't stop pounding from what I assume was my body being mad at me for not giving it its normal 2 cups of coffee every morning. I have to say, even though I've only been eating vegetables, fruits, and nuts (and olive oil), I've felt super satisfied at every meal.  I've also

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T and I gained entirely too much weight during the holidays. Mom's home cooking and baking are to blame; it has nothing to do with my overindulgence. Eh-hem. I've been wanting to do a detox for a while now and had planned on doing one in the Spring. Then I came across the Whole Living Action Plan.  Whole Living is my favorite magazine, and I've read it for years.  Consequently I've read about

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Okay, so you know how easy it is to get all obsessed with everything IF, right?  OPKs, temps, charting, BDing, HPTs, etc. Well, I've found my new obsession:  All things Korean baby!  Surprised? Obviously not. On the airplane a couple of weeks ago, I picked up my fave plane mag, Skymall.  You know what I'm talking about?  I so love shopping in the air!  And as I was perusing the mag, I came

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We get many reactions to our announcement that we're adopting.  Mostly joyous and excited.  Actually, we haven't had one negative reaction, which is awesome.  When people get super excited, sometimes they'll say some adoption taboo things that they don't realize are actually not received well. We've heard this so much, I just had to post it here and on our adoption blog's FAQ page:

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As I sit in a cabin in Lake Tahoe with great friends, excellent food, and downtime, I'm thinking it doesn't feel like New Year's Eve at all.  Usually T and I hang out at home and are in bed by 10, setting the alarm for 11:58, so we can watch the ball drop, say "Happy New Year," and kiss each other good night. This year, we're on an opposite coast, and our friends and family back home will be

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-62423255575794008242011-12-30T18:31:00.004-05:002011-12-31T18:23:48.113-05:00

You know when you pass by something in a store that you just gotta have?  Sometimes I'll look at something and even hold it in my hand or put it in the cart while mulling over whether or not I want to actually purchase it.   But then there are those times that I see something, and I instantly know it's mine! Right now we're in Lake Tahoe with family for the holidays, and last night T and I were

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APPROVED!!! Santa came early this year and delivered our homestudy approval.  We didn't expect this until January, so we are totally surprised and elated. Indeed, I screamed in my car after reading the email.  Ha!  We are officially on the wait strip for our baby, so this feels more "real" than it ever has.  We are going to be parents! :D Next steps: Once we get our sealed homestudy in the

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Ain't nothing like an NYC Christmas.  I grew up in So Cal where shorts and sandals aren't necessarily uncommon around Christmas.  Sure it gets cold.  Like 30 degrees sometimes.  At night. Tonight I walked the dogs around 5 and it was definitely in the 20s.  Walking down the street with Jake, watching my breath come out of my mouth, and looking at all of the lights in our neighborhood just feels

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-50601949409450941882011-12-11T16:26:00.004-05:002011-12-11T16:48:30.832-05:00

Dude, I am a total child of the 80s.  I couldn't believe it when I saw that skirts with leggings underneath came back....and legwarmers of all things!  What.  The.  Frig. Next thing I know I'll see people with Cavariccis and cut-off shirts walking down the street. *sigh*  Well, I suppose big hair wouldn't be such a bad thing.  I still miss mine.  Of course, I live in Jersey.  Which means I

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-78524866718057205822011-12-05T12:39:00.000-05:002011-12-05T12:39:18.263-05:00

Our Etsy shop has been sooooo supported by friends and family, and I am frankly stunned.  It's nearly empty of everything I had in there!  Only 8 Christmas ornaments and a bag remain.  I'll be putting 2 more hats and a scarf up this week. I just wanted to send a gigantic thank you to all of you who have supported our adoption.  We feel totally loved and can't even begin to express our gratitude.

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Nope.  Not our Christmas tree.  Still haven't decided if we'll get one this year, since we're going away for Christmas.  Hmmm. Anywho... Have you heard of Leaves of Love?  Oh my goodness...SUCH a cute idea.  It's a bare tree that needs "leaves" in the form of finger/thumbprints from loved ones.  We just got ours, and it's absolutely lovely.  It comes with the inks in a beautiful box labeled "

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Okay, so first the good stuff.  The social worker is coming on Monday!  Our home study will be officially under way, and we are so excited!!! And nervous.  But, I think we're perfect wanna-be parents, so I think it'll all work out exactly as it's supposed to. Now on to the stuff that's bothering me. I'm a geek.  Or more specifically, a Gleek.  And that's not the part that bothers me. The

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So, we're trying to make our house all pretty-like for the home study, right?  We got new carpet on the stairs, our bedroom, and the baby's room.  And it's awesome with the new paint and the new placement of the furniture and the cleanliness of it all with NO animal smells at all, right? Welp....it was pure bliss for three whole days. Yesterday the vet called me to say that our pup's stool

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I just received an email from RESOLVE to sign a petition to have infertility considered an essential health benefit.  Basically it's another step in passing a law that insurance providers will be mandated to provide infertility coverage. After having spent tens of thousands of dollars on treatments with no baby to show for it (or even if I did have a baby to show for it), I am all for this

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-34672588493439206182011-11-15T11:35:00.002-05:002011-11-15T11:38:04.499-05:00

We are cleared to go to homestudy!!!!  I am soooooo friggin' excited!!!! We had another slight bump in the road recently, and I found out today that it was the tiniest little, barely noticeable crack in the road, and we're CLEARED! YIPPEE!!!! Fingers crossed that we're all approved by the end of the year. I have aptly re-named my blog title Mission: Fertile Seoul, since Seoul, Korea is where

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-30729175237976700072011-11-14T08:21:00.003-05:002011-11-14T08:38:36.461-05:00

T and I spoke with Redhead's husband, and he sounds wiped out.  He told us they almost lost her on a Thursday night.  I told him, "That girl does not give up." He replied, "I used to think 'What have I gotten myself into marrying this girl?  She's so hardheaded and determined.'  And now it's the one thing I need her to be."  He went on to say he would've given up long ago had he been going

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-11899815183842958412011-11-11T14:44:00.002-05:002011-11-11T14:48:55.661-05:00

Last night T and I were having dinner and chatting about our days when he said, "I have some bad news." Immediately my heart leapt into my throat.  What could this news possibly be? T got a phone call from a friend telling him that a mutual friend's wife is in the hospital.  My friend, Redhead.  Redhead is amazing.  She's had health issues since she was young and most recently discovered that

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-65588424049862016572011-11-04T11:33:00.002-04:002011-11-04T11:35:19.319-04:00

I had a wake-up call the other day after chatting with a friend who's pregnant.  I asked her if she felt sorry for me that I'm not pregnant (she's a fellow IF-er and understands the question fully), and she replied honestly, "Yes I do."  She went on to say that it wasn't a pity feeling but rather one that implies she wished I was "there," too. I explained that, for some reason, I don't feel any

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-44410830380987950802011-10-24T20:58:00.005-04:002011-10-25T11:06:35.142-04:00

Um, 3 weeks just passed me by.  Anyone care to clue me in to where they went?  I'm looking for them everywhere, but I simply can't remember where I left them.  Maybe the freezer?  I once heard of someone leaving their keys there, so it could happen.  Ha! I've seriously felt like a new mom of late with the new puppy around.  The first night I was up with him 5 times to do his business outside. 

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-57000546752921310802011-10-02T10:28:00.000-04:002011-10-02T10:28:14.030-04:00

I've been seriously running around like a nut over the last couple of weeks, which accounts for the lack of postings.  And when I'm not literally running around, I'm at my desk working on my dissertation.  So sorry for my absence, Bloggies!  I've since submitted more dissertation stuff for review and am waiting for feedback.  I would still be running around today, if it weren't for a cold

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-51438360864414873792011-09-22T10:35:00.001-04:002011-09-23T08:32:10.270-04:00

Hey all! Just wanted to post the couple of new purse colors on Etsy...go check 'em out!  New items coming soon!

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-8597374159059167182011-09-16T08:02:00.001-04:002011-09-16T08:05:12.750-04:00

So, I'm sitting in my office waiting for my next client when I read this post by Chrissie over at The Days of Our Lives.  Tears started welling up immediately.  Now I have to get myself together before bringing in my client...thanks, Chrissie!  LOL. What a fantastic story to express the feelings and ideas behind infertility and adoption!  And the ending is the best part.  Without further ado:

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We are officially accepted into our Korea program of choice.  YIPPEE!!!!!  On to more paperwork!

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-68377668264607260642011-09-12T11:38:00.001-04:002011-09-12T11:39:15.717-04:00

I heard this on Hay House Radio this morning and couldn't resist posting it.  Wayne Dyer is one of my absolute favorite spiritual speakers and writers of all time....there's just something comforting about him.  Plus he reminds me of Daddy Warbucks post heart-softening.  He reads a beautiful poem by Rudyard Kipling called If.  So appropriate for the world of IF. I've posted both the video and

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-34515940517040232042011-09-11T08:04:00.003-04:002011-09-11T12:31:44.282-04:00

Today ten years ago, I was on my way to Washington D.C. with a friend and her dad when I heard on the radio that the World Trade Center was on fire.   My friend and her dad were busily chatting away in the front seat not hearing the news.  I interrupted them and asked them to turn up the radio when we heard that the Pentagon had also been hit by a plane. Knowing we would never get into the city

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-71799973963829278492011-09-08T11:20:00.000-04:002011-09-08T11:20:41.550-04:00

First: 100 followers???!!!  OMG, how awesome is that??  I'm so happy to have reached this threshold in the blogging community....thanks so much for following me, everyone.  It makes me feel like sometimes what I have to say is at least slightly interesting and maybe even valuable.  So, thanks again.  Muah! Second: We mailed off our application for the Korea program yesterday.  Whew.  That was

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-67799755127427705512011-09-05T13:55:00.003-04:002011-09-05T13:55:55.879-04:00

Anybody else see the whole Facebook thing that is supposedly an attempt at raising awareness for breast cancer?  You're supposed to write how many "weeks" you are based on your birth month and what you're craving based on what day you were born.  Since I was born in April, my status would be something like this: "I'm 4 weeks, and I'm craving _______." I have no idea what I'd be craving since I

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Today I sat on my couch getting ready for work and just generally enjoying my morning when I promptly hit a brick wall.  I received a message from a dear, beautiful, amazing IF sister, L, who's twins were born at 22 weeks and subsequently went to heaven. The tears immediately flowed as I can only imagine the pain of loss she and her husband are experiencing.  They were overjoyed to be

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-64813027641047449422011-09-01T08:19:00.001-04:002011-09-01T08:21:21.126-04:00

Oh boy did I EVER need to hear this today.  It's why I love love love the Omega Institute. 

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Went on the usual weekly hike today, and right in the middle I smiled. AF cramps.  She was on her way.  And as soon as I got home, I went to the bathroom, and she had indeed arrived.  Whew!  Longest cycle on record for me...56 days!  I'm happy that she's here (weird to say in the world of IF), and I'm also happy that there's nary an endo pain.  Knocking on wood.  Knocking on wood LOUDLY.  You

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CD55. With no AF in sight. I'm not temping, since I'm not TTC.  I don't even have a clue when I O'd (if at all). Took an HPT: BFN. I don't get it. Can one suddenly have PCOS? Not that I'm begging for AF to come, but sheesh....I hope something weird isn't going on.  What am I saying?  This IS weird! *sigh* Guess I'll just continue to sit around and wait. Translation for fertile peeps:

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My dear IRL, Fertile Thoughts, and bloggie friend, Tippy, told me she wanted a bag like this.  So I made it for her!  And I decided to make a few more and sell them in our Etsy Shop to make a little bit of money for our adoption fund. What do you think? I'm particularly proud of the lining as I am NOT a sewer (correction: "one who sews."  I realize how "sewer" sounds when read out loud, and

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Every morning I take the Monkey for a brisk walk around the 'hood to get in some exercise for the both of us.  Today was no exception.  And what a LOVELY day for a walk. I'm reminded of one of my favorite Ferris Beuller lines, "How can I possibly be expected to handle school on a day like this?"  It's perfect outside. So, I happily started my light jog down my driveway and onto the sidewalk,

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Hi ICLWers and everyone else!  You can view our IF story here.  We are currently on the road to international adoption with a blog at From IF to When.  We have been denied by a couple of programs (grrr) for various reasons...we had no idea how one must fit into specific niches in order to adopt from different programs. So, currently we are at square one.  I sat down last night and emailed a TON

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Hey all!  I've decided to make our adoption blog public due to a lot of our friends and family not having gmail accounts.  Apparently you can only have access for 30 days or so without a gmail account, and it's kinda a PITA to open a gmail account just to have access to my blog. Sooooo.....if you're interested, check out the adoption blog:  From IF to When. I'll probably make it private again in

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Wow.  What a great weekend at Omega!  It's so awesome there, and just full of people who think like me.  I was just chatting with a friend who called us the same kind of crazy, because we could talk about quantum physics, spirituality, yoga, and mind/body stuff forever.  It's just so interesting to me!  T keeps me grounded for sure....else I'd be in the clouds for the rest of my life.  LOL.

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I am going away for the weekend to the Omega Institute in upstate New York and Can. Not. Wait.  It's such a place of healing and decompression.  When I went last year, I was in dire need of healing, and Omega was THE place to start with its daily meditation, tai chi, yoga, lakeside snoozing, hammocks, and wellness center complete with all things bodywork (think 60 minutes of awesome massage and

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Sitting here in my office and my eyes are totally tearing up after having read this beautiful story of a mom and her daughter conceived with donor eggs.  Bet you're gonna tear up, too. Mommy's Garden

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T and I are trying to save money for our adoption, right?  So, he sold his motorcycle, we cancelled our gym memberships, I cancelled my Netflix, he cancelled his Sirius Radio, and we downgraded our cable.  All in all, we're saving $450/month.  Wow!  I had no idea we were shelling out that much money for non-essentials every month. Well...."non-essentials" is MY opinion.  Not T's. Following is

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Okay, so perhaps it's not a gigantic bounty, but it still makes me feel like my hard work does get results sometimes.  BONUS: I didn't have to pay thousands of dollars to bear this fruit. ;)

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...that there's a Facebook page for Infertility Awareness?  Too cool!  I found this via Stress Free Infertility's blog. They're having a friendship bracelet exchange right now, which happens to end today.  I know...kinda late in the game.  But, head on over there and perhaps you can participate, too! 

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This morning I let the dogs out to do their morning business and the Monkey got so excited chasing a bird.  That's pretty much routine, but this bird wasn't flying away. Uh-oh.  I think Simon got another bird, the little hunter that he is. I went over to it, and it was still alive with what looked like a broken wing.  Poor little guy.  So, I went inside to get a towel to wrap it in, and T says,

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Today marks the sixth year that T and I have been trying to build our family.  Last night a good friend said something to the effect of, "Your perfect baby is out there.  It'll happen for you." For some reason I got annoyed.  I love my friend.  But the statement rubbed me the wrong way, because I've heard it for SIX. FRIGGIN'. YEARS. I'm probably also more sensitive, because today marks a big

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FYI: New post up on the adoption blog It's been one week since I started my whole tracking-calories-and-exercising thing, and I've lost 1.2 pounds.  This after a decidedly indulgent Friday evening complete with lasagna and red wine.  Hee, hee.  At least I passed on dessert.  All in all, I feel great! It's a fabulous Sunday, and again I'm supposed to be concentrating on my dissertation and am

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Lately I've been feeling a little in the dumps.  My pep is gone a bit, and I think it's because I've been working a lot and need to do things to feel creative (fertile) again.  There's nothing like being infertile, working a lot as a therapist (helping others with their problems), and writing a dissertation on infertility.  Sheesh...no wonder I'm feeling a bit low. Here are the things I'm doing

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Well, my goodness, have I EVER been a crappy blogger lately!  Honestly, I've been super concentrating on my dissertation, and now that chapter 2 is submitted, I'm feeling a bit lighter.  But, it's on to chapter 3, since I have to submit that in 2 weeks.  My fingers hurt from all the typing....lol. So just some quick updates: I never heard back from the one adoption agency about the counseling

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Welcome everyone from ICLW and everyone else!  You can read about mine and T's IF story here.  We have moved on to a new journey of adoption (which has already begun with a bump), but I still write here about the various ways that I try to feel fertile in my life outside of actual baby-making fertility. Enjoy your stay! :-)

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The adoption blog is up, guys!  Shoot me an email, if you'd like to be invited to follow it. :-) missionfertilesoul at gmail dot com

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We left our information session on Monday feeling seriously disappointed.  I felt like we had just gotten another BFN after having not an ounce of worry that everything was going to be perfectly fine. We found out that the agency we use works with an agency in Korea that is ultra conservative and does not allow any applicants that have been in therapy less than 2 years ago.  In addition, one

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I've been really good today....working on my dissertation all day.  I've allowed myself brief breaks for blog-perusing and adoption-obsessing as well as a brief lunch that the Monkey snuck a bite of (booger!).  I'm now 24 pages into my diss, which is a lot farther behind than I should be.  Ugh.  But, I'm proud of myself for making progress today. On the other hand, being engulfed in all things

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I'm coming off a fantastic weekend with some girls I met through Fertile Thoughts (lovingly called FT in our circle).  They visited me all the way from their home states, and T and I were so happy to have them here.  Don't even get me started on the Monkey who practically charged their room every morning looking for more kisses and belly rubs as if he never gets any attention.  He has been

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Yesterday while at Peddler's Village I walked into a quaint little bookstore that is absolutely one of my favorite places in the village.  I started perusing the shelves for anything interesting and found two gigantic sections on pregnancy and motherhood, complete with scrapbooks and journals and just all things pink and blue. Normally I'd avoid these sections like the plague, quickly running in

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Happy 4th of July!  Well.....in a couple of days. :-)  Today T and I are going to Peddler's Village in PA for their annual Celebration of Freedom.  If you live nearby I highly recommend hanging out at Peddler's Village....SUCH a fun time with restaurants and shops galore.  It's a quaint little mini town kinda thing with all kids of fun things to do and see.  Tonight they'll have a fireworks

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A big heart-felt THANK YOU to all of you who have supported T and me through this craziness over the last couple of months.  I feel so lucky to have such beautiful people in my bloggie life (would be even awesome-er if it was in real life!). The day of our chemical announcement, T held me while I cried crazily and said, "Hey....we have each other."  The "And that's all that we need" was implied.

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The last two fresh cycles that we did (one in 2008, one in 2009) I had a really rough time with the resultant BFNs.  I mean, really rough.  I was angry and bitter and definitely hibernated for quite a while. But something is different this time.  Something weird is happening. T and I had decided even before this FET that this is our last treatment cycle regardless of what happened.  Now

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22. I may go into hibernation for a bit.  Thanks for all of your support.

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First -- Thank you SO MUCH for the outpouring of support!  It's comforting more than you know (actually you probably DO know) that I have such a community to "hang out" with and give and receive thoughts and love.  Awesome.  So, thank you. Today's POAS is lighter.  I'm afraid this is a chemical for us, guys. I text T to let him know, and he says he's not giving up hope until the bloodwork

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I broke down last night.  After the PIO shot and all of the pain, I just broke down.  I totally think I needed it, because I've been keeping it together really well the last couple of weeks....in fact, I've even been downright upbeat! Nurse Blue-Eyes and Nurse Strawberry said to me last Friday that whenever they've had bad days, they just want to pick up the phone and call me.  LOL.  They are so

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So, today's POAS is ever so slightly darker than yesterday's.  Right now I'm just letting that comfort me.  Although there are plenty of success stories out there with low betas, there are also plenty of non-success stories.  I'm of course hoping that this time will be one of the times we beat the odds in our favor. There is nothing that I can do about Monday's beta except keep POASing and

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And it's not good.... 23.  I go back Monday and am praying that it doubles.  This is seriously the farthest we've ever come in six years, and I'm not ready to give up hope just yet. 

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It's darker.  Whoa.  Is this seriously happening? Beta's today....I shall update as soon as I know!  Well, probably after T & I cry our eyes out together, because it's going to be a fabulous number.  I feel it. Please check out my last post about Tippy's Night of Hope Nomination....I don't want that to get lost in my POAS post shuffle here.  Please cast your vote!!!

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Tippy's been nominated for a Hope Award for Resolve's 2011 Night of Hope.  Only FOUR blogs out of thousands were nominated!!!!  I'm so ecstatic for her!!! Please oh PLEASE vote for her blog, Tippy & Tidy's Tumultuous Trip to Toddlers (friggin' awesome name), so she can be recognized for her awesome writing and fantastic views on infertility.  She's an excellent choice.  Head on over to her blog

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There's still a line! It's only slightly darker today, and that's a wee bit disappointing, but I am soooooo grateful to see a line there still, I can barely breathe. Easier to see today? I had a tiny bit of brown spotting last night and this morning. From everything I've read this is normal, but of course I can't help but add it to the list of my worries. Sheesh....even in my overall zen

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So, apparently I'm a POAS junkie now. Went and bought FRER (First Response Early Results) and POAS with non-FMU. Still extremely faint, but man I'm even shocked to see anything on there! Can't wait for tomorrow! Current symptoms: Uterine cramps, some low-back pain like I'm getting my period, slightly fuller breasts, and strong-smelling pee (even when diluted....whew!). Some of these things

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Oh so faint...could it be?  I wish the photo did it better justice.  8dp6dt

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Welcome ICLWers and others to Mission: Fertile Soul! You can read about our TTC Journey here.  Currently we are in the 2WW (two week wait) or an FET (frozen embryo transfer).  Beta is Friday.  I POAS again today (peed on a stick), and it's negative.  Hope is fading fast. So, ICLW couldn't have come at a better time, since I need some serious support here.  And, of course, I'll be doling out as

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The dreaded Two Week Wait. Ugh. I've still been in my zen place overall, but admittedly, it's getting more difficult this last week of our wait.  I POASd yesterday (peed on a stick for you non-fertility folks) and it was negative.  It's still super early to expect a positive, and I expected a negative for sure.  AND, it wasn't traumatic at all to see that negative!  I feel free of the hold that

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Today's been a great day... It was a leisurely, cool morning with T and I hanging with our little Monkey (Dex the Dachshund).  I was hanging in the living room when T said, "I'll be right back, I'm going to the store."  He likes trips to the nearby Quick Check to pick up coffee or whatever. When he got home he had a sweet little self-satisfied smile on his face and a bakery box in his hand.  He

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The last couple of days anxiety has been creeping in slightly.  Not to the point of panic or anything close, but certainly noticeable.  In addition, my ass is pretty sore from all of these PIO shots and the progesterone is giving me constipation, making me retain water, and making me super tired. So I went to my acupuncturist today to get all of these things taken care of.  Man, is she talented

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Perhaps it was the fact that there are 7 doctors at my old clinic. Perhaps it was the fact that there are about 15 people in the waiting room at nearly every given hour of the day. Perhaps it had to do with overwhelmed staff, hormonal women, and the "get her in, get her out" attitude. Perhaps it's a combo. Whatever the issue....the folks at my old clinic NEVER (and I do mean never) called me

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Apparently I am still in vacation mode since I haven't posted a blog since prior to our glorious, fabulous, stupendous trip to FL.  Hee, hee.  It was pure awesomeness, I have to say. I haven't been ignoring you, Blog World...really I haven't.  I feel like I hit the ground running upon our return from bliss.  During our vacation I had ample time to work on my calendar, which has been a complete

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...infertility has not been on my mind a lot lately. We're going on vacation!!!  Even amidst all of the phone calls and coordination having to do with our FET, I'm in vacay mode, and I'm not thinking about infertility.  I'll be packing my Lupron and needles, but I won't be thinking about infertility more than the 2 minutes it's going to take to shoot up everyday while on the lovely beach in

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Posted this on a support forum today: So, I'm thinking about all of the things I have to do today, right? Fertility-related: Go get physical, get forms notarized, coordinate medication delivery, fax completed doc forms to nurse, check on funding from DH's annuity, coordinate payment with the billing coordinator at the clinic.  Non-fertility-related: Pick up dry-cleaning, finish laundry, do

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So, I've been kinda obsessive about my age lately.  Without the culture of infertility, I don't know that being 36 would have ever crossed my mind as being old.  True, I'm closer to 40 than I am to 30, but isn't 40 the new 30?  Or maybe, 40 is the new black.  I get confused. Anyway.... I was driving to work the other day, musing about my old-ness, and wondering what the hell I'm going to do

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I think I had forgotten (almost) all of the steps and coordination involved in a fertility cycle.  I thank God that I'm in such a different place nowadays otherwise I'd probably be left feeling as overwhelmed as I was in my past cycles.  After several back and forth emails and phone calls, it was conveyed to me that there is a nationwide shortage of the 2 week Lu.pron Kit.  Wow. That spoke

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So you know how we fertile-seeking peeps are, right? Desperate.  Okay, perhaps I should only speak for myself.  And that's how I've felt.  Desperate to be a mom. Desperate to have a little one growing inside my belly that will have T's eyes and my family's dimples.  I don't have dimples, but awesome dimples run in my family. Actually, I DO have dimples.....they're just not on my face.  Thank

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I'm so honored to have received two lovely awards over the last week. Baby Hopes over at Chasing Our Stork awarded me this: And Keiko over at Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed awarded me this: Baby Hopes and Keiko are both beautiful, beautiful bloggers who have touched my heart and kept me captivated with their candidly emotional writing about their struggles with infertility.  I wish with all of

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Dude, I've been a bad blogger. I didn't do my customary welcome to ICLWers this month....probably because I've been insane over here IRL (in real life).  Soooooo..... Hello and Welcome to MISSION: Fertile Soul!!!!  You can find the story of T & Me here, and you can find our TTC journey here. Right now, we are awaiting our FET in June and having a blast while we're waiting.  Well...except for

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Wow!  What a day! When I arrived at the new clinic yesterday morning, I was all set to walk away with new cycle information (had an appointment with the nurse to go over my calendar) and to walk away with the embryo transport device.  I envisioned a small lunch box kinda thing. I was wrong. Dead wrong. It was a HUGE tank filled with liquid nitrogen and weighed probably around 30 pounds.  The

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Last night I did one of my favorite guided meditations called a Restful and Rejuvenating Sleep.  When I woke up this morning, I had a gigantic smile on my face. The meditation is about thinking about a problem in your day and then asking your guide to help you resolve the problem in your dream.  Of course, I thought about the problem in my EVERY day: Infertility.  And, more specifically, this

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Tomorrow is transport day. Yikes. I'm not really sure why I'm so nervous.  Oh wait, let's see....these are ONLY my precious frozen babies that I, a mere wanna-be mom, am transporting to the new clinic instead of some ultra-high-tech ambulance with special frozen embryo compartments that are set at just the right temperature and have special cushioning and play individualized music in each

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I despise going to the doctor.  I really do.  I had a pretty bad cold last week, and just hung out all day in bed on Wednesday.  Were it up to T, I would've been at the doctor's office getting some sort of pill.  But it just doesn't make sense!  It's just a cold. BUT... I had quite the scare on Thursday night that made me....even ME....consent to go to the ER. It started with a headache and a

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We like to pretend he doesn't rule the roost around here.  We know we're wrong.

Fertile Seoulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05991069220189294130noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4039294309370407120.post-87590021740624295072011-04-12T08:17:00.001-04:002011-04-12T08:18:18.089-04:00

One of my closest IF friends had four blissful days of pregnancy, and her second beta showed a chemical.  Cherm over at Handling Plan B needs your support right now...please go give her some love.

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What a weekend!  It was like a mini IF emotional roller-coaster ride! Since my newfound happiness in life, it's been really hard to get me down.  Even through the loss of Bailey, depression didn't touch me as hard as it would have in the early years of our struggles with infertility.  I'm wondering if the birth control pills are throwing me for a loop, though.  I've been soooo emotional this

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